Ever.

But I just feel to make this rant a public one...for anyone to read.

Where do I even begin?

There are simply things about me, and from my viewpoint, that I feel would be necessary to spew in front of the "public eye". It seems as if several people on this website either know me, of me, or anything that may be an affiliation.

Sadly, I know very few of you.

First and foremost, I am an adult. This is my argument.
There are things that have happened, and that I've done, that I would like to talk about. I am not feeling good about a lot of things...and I need people to see what I believe.

Before the wrong direction may be taken, I am not being entirely specific of anyone. Just one person...and that is all. I mean it with no hard feelings.

Now...there has been a lot on my mind this past week and I've collected a handful of opinions about them. I am GLAD to have known you. Indeed, I have. You were wonderful to me, and still are. However, I have come to realize that it may be best we have parted ways. Yes, we wanted opposite paths. That is apparent. We also have different personalities and opinions on what a relationship should contain.

The one major issue I have come up with, was our ages. Sexually, it doesn't bother me. Mentally, it does.
Honestly, I'll ask...do you know anything about the real world? I am not being an asshole when I say this either.
This is one of the HUGE reasons why I don't think I will join forces with a younger party again. (Unless they understand, have lived through, and can repeat this process if necessary)
I care about you very, very much. But..have you ever experienced life without a guardian to shelter you?
What is it like to pay bills...work full time...complete your degree..and worry about it all?
What is it like to wonder what you will eat if you have no money because you had to pay the rent to keep a roof over your head?
What is it like to starve because your child comes first?
What is it like to sacrifice?
What is it like to be in court..and have to defend, stand up, for yourself?
What is it like to make ends meet?
What is it like to struggle for the greater good?
What is it like to evaluate the pros and cons to complete a sturdy decision.

It's not easy.

I can assure you, you'll get there someday..and perhaps you'll be able to answer some of those questions. If you can answer them now, I apologize for assuming.

PLEASE don't hurry to get there, I beg you.

If I could go back, I would.

But...I have already been there and it is now time to move forward.

The idea of what I just said was that you are too young to comprehend that. You are old enough to see these words and realize that it's a big deal. You are old enough to know right from wrong. You are old enough to choose some things for yourself, but you just do not get it from my viewpoint.

Sometimes, I'd seem to be more of a parent than a lover because I would have to remind you to say nicer things..or to settle down when you're rowdy..or to be mindful. I am not, by any means, trying to put you on blast here. Or..make this seem weighted in some way, because it's not.
It's just how I feel.

All right?

I know life has not been easy to you, from what you've told me. When I was a teenager and growing up, it was not perfect either. Nothing ever is..and it never WILL be. As an adult, you must understand that.
You are highly intelligent, and you are an outstanding individual. The only thing that you will never quite grasp is life as an adult on their own. In someone, as a lover or partner, they must possess this. One day, you will nod and think back on this. For now..ENJOY your youth!

MOST of these things, I did not realize until it was over and I had time to roll back on it all.

The reason WHY I am posting this here, instead of e-mailing it, is because I know you'll see it...and I know others will, also. I want people to know me from MY point of view. I want them to read what I have to say, since I have the feeling most may have already formed an idea about me.

I wish you the BEST of luck with your life..and what you plan on doing. Truly.
Your happiness is a value to me, and it's special. I am not bitter about anything, nor do I feel awkward. What makes you happy, in turn, makes me happy. (Right now, I am unhappy because of these life decisions I need to make..and some alternate issues.)

Oh!

Never before have I formed feelings over someone I hardly knew. Thanks for giving me that experience.
I've been around the block..and I know many things, but never once did I imagine this to occur. Cheers.

I am pretty certain I've said everything that I wanted folks to see.

Get at me, if you have any thoughts.

peace, love, and hair-grease!!!

Io amo la mia famiglia italiana, se si sta leggendo questa! E 'stata una lunga strada e mi fa piacere che mi ha portato dove mi fatto. I giorni sono scuri, ma forse si migliorerà?

<3~ROCK